[fic] You Don't See Me - Yugioh, YYxY, angst, G, theme 38
Title: You Don't See Me
Author: Chey (duelist_gurl163)
Theme: 38 - “You don’t need me or anyone else to make you special; you already are.” for 50_lovequotes
Rating: G
Genre: angst
Parings: Implied YamixYugi, YugixAnzu, AnzuxYami, all one-sided
Archive: You're lookin' at it
Warnings: Slightly OOC Yugi. xD
Spoilers: None really
Summary: "Why can’t you see it, Aibou? Why…why will you never understand?"
Disclaimer: Yugioh is not mine...I hope that didn't come as a surprise to anyone.
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“I don’t understand why you’re so upset!” The spirit looked helplessly at Yugi, unable to believe that something as simple as him agreeing to go out to lunch with Anzu had caused a perfectly amicable conversation to turn into such a big fight. He wasn’t even sure how the actual fighting part had started, much less how they’d gotten to this point. “Please tell me what’s wrong, you’re worrying me!”
Yugi glared at his misty, non-corporeal form, lashing out: “Why do you even care? You shouldn’t be upset! After all, you’re the one that everybody likes!”
The spirit stepped back. “Aibou…”
Despite the sadness in the spirit’s tone, Yugi continued bitterly, “Anzu loves you, not me. Jounouchi looks forward to his duels with you, not me. Kaiba considers you his greatest rival, not me. Never me! The only reason they even look at me is because of you! So cool and brave and mysterious…I should have known this would happen. How could little, childish, weak Yugi ever compare?”
“Aibou, please don’t say things like that about yourself.” His other self begged. “You know that isn’t true!”
“It might as well be! Maybe everyone would be happier if I just locked myself in my soul room and let you have constant control! If you’re the only thing that makes me special, why should I bother coming out at all?!”
“No, Aibou-”
“I don’t want your pity!” Yugi turned, eyes wet with tears. “Just go…Anzu will be waiting.”
The next thing he knew, control had switched and he was standing in Yugi’s room, and he could tell without even trying that Yugi had put up a strong block against his mind, so there was no chance of talking to him.
Sighing, the spirit sat down on the edge of the bed, biting his lip. His eyes stung painfully, heartbroken at the words Yugi had shouted at him.
Aibou, you’re wrong. You’re special on your own, so special. You never needed me.
He looked down at his hands.
But you can’t see it…there is so much that you can’t see.
And here he was, about to go out with Anzu, a girl he considered as nothing more than a good friend, but who saw him as so much more. He had often felt jealous pangs from Yugi, and he understood that Yugi was sad that Anzu would never look at him the way she looked at his other self. But didn’t Yugi realize…?
Why can’t you see that I don’t love her that way, Aibou? Why can’t you see that there is someone else…someone that is so much more special, so much more important to me…
He sighed miserably, fingers now gripping the covers of the bed.
Why don’t you see it? Why don’t you know that you are perfect on your own? Why don’t you understand how I feel?
His eyes closed and tears collected under the lids and escaped to dampen his eyelashes, but he let them go no further. Inside his mind he leaned against the closed door of Yugi’s soul room, wishing he could break it down, wishing he could make Yugi take back all the terrible things he’d said about himself. How could Yugi believe those things? Was he truly that angry? And even if he wasn't and had only yelled in a moment of jealousy, how could he say those words at all?
Why can’t you see it, Aibou? Why…
But his thoughts couldn’t penetrate the door, Yugi had securely shut himself off from him for the moment, and the spirit was left alone to sink to his knees beside it, sorrow in his heart.
Why will you never understand?
x-x-x
Notes: Unfortunately, based on a true story. Most of my friends tend to put themselves down a lot or think badly of themselves. And it hurts to see/hear them do that. I wish I could make them see that they're not bad at all. That, in fact, they are great people who are so special and important. But I can't make them see it.
So, neither can Yami. u_u That's right, I'm taking my angst out on you! *is promptly killed by Yugi in revenge*
I realize Yugi is not given to shouting or being self-depricating like that...but it was necessary for the fic to make sense. So just roll with it. xD