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The mental healthcare system in America SUCKS. Maybe it sucks in other countries too, but I can only speak for myself here. It's such a load of bureaucratic nonsense, and everyone has their hands tied. Therapists can't make any sort of medical interventions when needed, but the psychiatrists don't have time to actually talk to you and make an ( Read more... )

So, Saturday was absolutely horrible. Sorry to everyone that I was a bitch to (read: everyone I talked to). My depression and my sadness over my friends came to a wrenching climax and culminated in me being VERY bad...long story short, I cut my wrists and took too many sleeping pills. The cuts were bad, but they could have been much worse, and the ( Read more... )

It's Oaks Day and I'm going to @#$%#$% work. Yes, I realise no one else in the entire world actually pays attention to Oaks or the Derby, but it is PARTY time in Kentucky, and this is the first year I haven't partied it up somewhere. A few certain people, who shall remain nameless here, chose to abandon the long-standing plans of visiting for the ( Read more... )

I am so fucking anxious right now. I think I'm going to literally crawl out of my skin and go hide somewhere. I have no idea what's going on, but I've been so anxious about NOTHING that I feel physically sick, can't eat, and now I'm really shaky. And GOD I want to cut. I feel so numb and unreal and at least it would give me something to do with all ( Read more... )

So, I've fallen off the wagon so hard, I think I have a concussion and several broken bones. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. You would think the beautiful spring weather would improve the situation, and instead, I'm laying inside depressed beyond all reason ( Read more... )

Since my blog is more of a way to keep my general friends updated, I haven't really gotten out a good vent in a while. So you've been warned ( Read more... )

Ok, so I thought I had done this already, but apparently not. For the moment, my LJ is only properly working on my brother's computer, so I'm using a blog most of the time. The addy is http://paperbag47.blogspot.com/ Still using this, but most stuff will be over there until I can figure ( Read more... )

Boo. It's so cold and rainy. And I've had the flu. I'm updating this and then going to sleep all afternoon. I was supposed to start a new babysitting job, but the lady told me she'd call Monday or Tuesday with directions and the time, and I've still heard nothing. Ugh. I don't have her number anymore. She called right before we were leaving for ( Read more... )

Yeah, so after it worked the last time, I typed up a huge update and it decided to fail again! Ugh. I'm going to try later on the other computer, but I am still alive and hanging in there. E-mail me if you want to know more! I love you all!