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[afterannabel]

I feel like a complete and utter academic failure. Thank God I didn't go to a "good" college, because I probably would've failed out. If I'm so damn smart, why can't I get my shit together, huh? What the hell is wrong with me? Why do I even think I belong in graduate school

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[rhynofooty]

Try a tutor. They are really good for helping out.

[afterannabel]

It's not so much that I have trouble understanding the material, it's that I have trouble not being an underachieving asshole. I get anxious and overwhelmed easily, which leads to things like not going to class and not doing work. Which leads to maybe failing my drama class.

[rhynofooty]

Its not a tutors job to teach you the material. Its their job to improve you as a student.

[afterannabel]

I never looked at it that way. hmmmmm.

Chin up

[prettyvacunt]

I know something that will cheer you up...

IT'S PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME!

Okay, it's probably not as fun without a visual but if I had a banana suit I'd dance for you. Also if I had a badger suit.

PEANUT BUTTER JELLY WITH A BASEBALL BAT!

I actually was thinking of applying to yr school when I was in high school. I heard raves that it was an amazing school. THE LIES THEY FEED US HIGH SCHOOL SENIORS!

Pah. Okay, I'm done being retarded.

Re: Chin up

[afterannabel]

Thank you. That made me lol. :)

It's got amazing science programs. But a) I'm in the humanities and b) it is on Long Island and isolated from any sort of civilization. You can't even walk to the Starbucks without crossing six lanes of traffic.

Pah. Okay, I'm done being retarded.
Christina, I hope you're never done being retarded.

ps. What exactly is going on in your icon?

Re: Chin up

[prettyvacunt]

I see. I'm in the English/Humanities department as well. I figured it was more of a science oriented school when I found out you guys have your own hospital. You know, my tour guide actually told me that he didn't like a lot of the people there because most of them are Long Island snobs. Gosh, he was cute too. I can't really remember but how far away is actual civilization? Do you have to take a 10 minute bus or train ride to get your espressos?

Re: As for my icon, that was just me laying in the grass waiting to have a picnic. Nothing fascinating.

I'm glad my stupidity can be of good use! Heeee!

Re: Chin up

[afterannabel]

You have to take the bus to get your espresso.
The hospital would be more useful if I were prone to overdoses.
Half the school is Long Island snobs and the other half is FOB Asians.

It's still nice.

I wouldn't say it's stupidity per se.

[apdraper2000]

"If I'm so damn smart, why can't I get my shit together, huh?" I can't tell you how many times I've asked myself that question.

The only thing worse than this condition is to add to it - which I did - a bizarre (under the circumstances) intellectual pride that prevented me from even remotely considering the possibility that there might be concrete dimensions to the problem which would totally respond to concrete support, like, say, tutoring.

That doesn't seem to be a problem for you. Rock and roll!

[afterannabel]

I have a certain amount of that sort of pride, but it's faded considerably as I've gotten older.

[farmerandy]

*big hug* The kind of intelligence you have ( in horrifying abundance, I might add) has nothing to do with the kind of intelligence needed to sit down and bang out a paper or make yourself go to class. Mel Levine is sort of the expert in this stuff, he calls it output disorder. Read his "The Myth of Laziness." I didn't even finish it and it helped me sort out a lot of my own pride issues. I think when I finish it I might even be able to use it to change.

I love you so much, and miss you so bad I've got the shakes.

[afterannabel]

-big hugs back-
I'm definitely going to check out that book.
Thank you so much.
Andy, sometimes I feel I don't deserve you as a friend, you're so good to me.
I love you so much. I wish you were coming home soon.

[farmerandy]

Sooner than I thought! As it turns out, this kibbutz IS having a second ulpan, and since I'm all cozy here, I'm going to stay for it. It's ending in late July, which means I'll probably be home for August, unless something goes wonky.

Don't deserve me? Buster, you earned me, now you're just gonna have to put up with it.

[tamaracat]

I'm the same way. I took four incompletes this semster and medically withdrew from another. I suck.

[afterannabel]

You don't suck. It's hard. College was not designed for the benefit of people with mental health issues.