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Failure
so i had a job for just under 2 months at dominos delivering... they fired me cuz i couldnt make pizzas fast enough... it was good time too... got to hangout with Ash almost ever weekend... fun times fun times.... im super depressed... i wasnt good enough... i never feel good enough.. for any job or anyone. Ive been very lonely lately seestor has ( Read more... ) -
Does it make you feel alive?
such emo emo times lately... even ash is emo... kinda scary. the new limp bizkit cd came out finally its badassssss. I have a job but i still dont make enough to make the ends meet... id like to have enough money to have fun on the weekends and still pay all my billz ( Read more... ) -
Full of Artificial Sweetener
sooooooooooo since the last entry... at least i think since the last entry...(i dont read my own journal heh) ive gotten a job, fell for some one, had that some one totally shoot me down because of something i thought i believed... aaand got a tumblr account.... sweeeeeet. On of my bestest best friends is missing... life sucks without being able to ( Read more... ) -
3:32
So things are getting better for me... therapy is helping thats good and im starting to see everything clearer. On the other hand one of my best friends seems to be deep in depression and theres nothing i want more than to help her but i dont even know if she even listens to my advice. Some one threatened her and i feel like shes stuck somewhere ( Read more... ) -
It's nice to meet you... how may i help?
Why is it people allow others to treat them like shit? Maybe theyre just used to their lives being totally devoid of true love and care that they gravitate towards the hate. it has been my tendancy to be attracted towards individuals like this and then i always get butthurt when i put more into the friendship or relationship than the other ( Read more... ) -
Confessions from the back burner
Placed directly back to the back burner. as the world turns im still standing still. people getting together.... people breaking up.... and im sitting here happy by my lonesome self... i dont like being controlled or having some one looking over my sholder even if its my parents. i cant stand people standing there watching me unless they are ( Read more... ) -
Everybody ignores
Why would you get back with some one that you said was so bad not even a week ago? What and idiot... he showed his ass right away when you went back to him..Please dont make us have to come up there and beat his ass. Stupid girls will never change lol jeez. Whitechapel in august YEEEESSSSS. Started therapy exactly a week ago... i feel tons better ( Read more... ) -
Bleed scar and re-bleed
Andrea is right i am addicted to attention whether it be good or bad... attention is attention... i may keep myself in certain situations simply to maintain the attention. Hmm that can be a problem because i usually stay attached until it bleeds scars and re-bleeds again... one day i may bleed to death without even realizing it or maybe thats ( Read more... ) -
will this be the last time?
im tired of being out on the back burner anyways. ive always been there waiting for the time when you needed something from me... why? because i thought i loved the un-lovable. but you cant love some one if they dont love you back... thats something old i havent had to deal with in a long time. im sorry you had to start chilling with me during such ( Read more... ) -
Bloop
I feel like staying in my room for the rest of my life. Id stay out of trouble but that would probably upset a lot of people if i became recluse... maybe not... i feel like there arent many friends who truly care left anyways ( Read more... )