i figured my self out yesterday. it was a pretty awsome revelation. no need to elaborate because i got something better. i remembered that when i was a kid i would put colors to people. like i would picture a color to go with every person and i dont know what that shit is. thats weird. but now that i remembered that i can do it again. so far i only ( Read more... )

i  officialy give up on everything. i dont need to have freinds anymore. all i want is to be alone in the woods face down in the mud.

i got pills that are supposed to balance yu n mellow you out n make you feel happier, but im pretty sure they are making me suicidal. i get chiled n mellow but i will just stare at scissors and think i could cut open my throat so many ways with these. i could stab my self or open them up n make smalle puncture wounds or i can just slice threw my ( Read more... )

i give up

 my knees ache because they dont want to carry me threw my days anymore.monday mornign im leaving for the great up north. im dont plan on ever coming back unless its ina body bag. i jacked off a little bit ago and im real sick of that.

positive nooootes. bugs lots. lots o good ass bugs fo my ish.

im pissed off. i have one friend i hang out with and ive watched him change into a completely new person for his girlfriend. now shes making him quit smoking and he told me befor if he quits he wont be able to come hang out with me. what the fuck i hate females. i watch all of them try to run someone elses life. what the fuck has she done for him. ( Read more... )

im drunk off someone elses liquor. fuck you heather. she wont read this. noone will. maybe someone will. today was the gayest day of my life. id like to punch so many fucking people in their faces. id like to point a gun at children just to scare them and really pull the trigger on their parents. all i can think about is hurting people. i like it ( Read more... )

i need to cheer up. i got the best friend in zee world. but still i am alone. i see him with his girlfriend and i get jealous. because no girls ever show inerest in me. i tried to help a drunk girl at a party and be a nice guy but i just got yelled at by her friends. while the other guys around talked about fucking her when she was passed out. i ( Read more... )

sometime around midnight. my jam ( Read more... )