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sometime around midnight. my jam.
so im pathetic. i hate myself so i go way out of my way for someone else. of course they dont feel the same way i feel. bt i continue to spend hundreds of dollars. drop what im doing or break off plans. its never returned. i can feel sad in my body. i never thought sad was a physical feeling. i hate that i can feel so good and so bad and so happy and so sad all t the same time. i never felt so connected to someone.
so im pathetic. i hate myself so i go way out of my way for someone else. of course they dont feel the same way i feel. bt i continue to spend hundreds of dollars. drop what im doing or break off plans. its never returned. i can feel sad in my body. i never thought sad was a physical feeling. i hate that i can feel so good and so bad and so happy and so sad all t the same time. i never felt so connected to someone.