sorry for not being around for a while...got fired from the dealership and i don't have any internet access at home...ill get back at all of you later.. love to everyone

so for the past couple of days i have been thinking about the whole sean ordeal. and i have come to a conclusion. i can't go see him. i can't even talk to him. i need to tell him and i don't think i can. i could never form the words to tell him something that will hurt him. i am a coward for this and i know it. but for my own sake and mental ( Read more... )

i never thought id hear his voice again. ever. but he called. it had been a over a year since we spoke. now im going to CO at the end of next month to see him for the 1st time in over 3 years. its going to be wild, scary, nerve wrecking and wonderful. ive never seen snow either. he says its snows every night. i can't wait. i needed a vacation and ( Read more... )

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i didn't really get to say my goodbyes to steve-o. i couldn't even walk in the room at the service. it was too hard. i couldn't let my last memory of his face be that. i couldn't bear to look at him and not have him look back at me with those eyes of his and that smile that made the sun shine. i got as far as the doorway. the morning of steves ( Read more... )

words cannot describe the shitty feeling i hold in my heart right now. steve is gone. hes really gone and i can't believe it. its so surreal.

adam and juan.....the three of you guys were my family for so long and i know i let you all down. and im sorry. and now i can never tell him how sorry i am. but i can tell you guys. im sorry i faded away. i ( Read more... )

it always is in my case though isn't it.

Your Life Path Number Is 11

11

Your life path is greatly associated with spiritual awareness ( Read more... )

well....life in the new place is going good....even better now...i can finally say i am happy. i have someone in my life right now that just makes me....just....feel amazing. i glow when hes around. just wow.....i don't wanna jinx it though...it almost feels too good to be true.

well....tomorrow i am officially moving out of my moms again and into a townhouse with 2 of my girls. im SUPER excited. i needed to get outta my moms sooo bad. im glad that i will finally have a place to call my own. to be able to smoke a ciggarette in my bed will be one of my greatest joys! YES!!! oh man. brody and layla (the twins/my lil kitties ( Read more... )