Haven't Had One in a While

[abiona_sashenka]

Time for a self-depricating post. Haven't had one in a while, so it's time...

Comments

[abiona_sashenka]

Thanks Deer. *hug* Don't worry, I'm not aiming for bones... just normal clothing sizes. I don't even want to be in single digit sizes at this point... I think I'd look ill. :o) Persistance is great, now I just need to find some willpower to go along with it!

[mashoogina]

I second that.

[amasugiru]

My mom always complains that she eats more when I am home. If it makes you feel better you can blame me as well. I don't mind. Besides, think of my visit as a mini vacation. You always eat more on vacation. Don't let it get you down love. Keep on truckin'

[abiona_sashenka]

I would never blame you! It totally was a vacation for me, which was great. I was just shocked about my weight being THAT high after actually less than a week of vacation. Just means I have to work harder is all. :o)

[jayj79]

that icon rocks!

[kyriarose]

What kind of exercises are you doing?
Maybe you're developing muscle, which weighs more.

I bet you have Legs of DEATH and DOOM!!

[abiona_sashenka]

I do arm and leg weight lifting workouts every other day (arms one day, then they get to rest the next day while I work my legs, etc) and I know that I have gotten stronger. I don't doubt that. But THAT much muscle? The self-doubt bug has bitten me in my expansive ass!

However.... it is funny that I scare the tiny Japanese men at the gym when I move the pin on the stack of weights for the leg press machine. I'm like, "Yes, I could CRUSH YOU. MWAHAHAHAHA!"

*rolls eyes*

[mashoogina]

No seriously, I know how you feel. I lose and gain the same 5 lbs over and over and over again. I don't know what's going with you and the weight thing... that is very frustrating. I know how painful and frustrating it can be... it's a hideous viscious cycle that is hard to get out of. Maybe you should write down everything that you eat every day and be totally honest with yourself about what you're eating and everything.

I know this is kind of not what you want to hear, but maybe you should see a nutritionist when you come home to the states? Plus, there's a great nutritionist on the BBC, Dr Gillian (I can't remember her name) but she has a show "You are what you eat" and there's also a cookbook. It really seems to be working for people who are your size/weight. Perhaps you should look into that? I can get you a copy of the cookbook and send it to Japan if you want.

Anyways... don't do anything faddy or drastic... it's just a matter of getting into the groove.

Re: *rolls eyes*

[abiona_sashenka]

Thank you, I know you know what I'm talking about. It is crazy annoying... I have been seriously contemplating going back to low carb here, which would completly eliminate my going out to eat, um, ANYWHERE in this country, although Sarah showed me which of the listings on food labels is carbohydrates, so that's a bonus. However, limiting myself to that in Japan would ultimately be bad for me, and I know this, because there would come a time when I would go out and I would have rice or bread or pasta or dessert and that would just totally negate all the work I had done up until that point.

So, I'm just going to "watch" my carbs (watch them go in my MOUTH) and calories, too, and see what happens.

Do you know if there's a website for that chick's "philosophy?" Guess I could google it myself, huh? Duh... Thanks, Allie... and get your butt online... Tell me it would be bad to cut out of school early again.

Re: *rolls eyes*

[ninjaneko01]

I feel your pain. Yesterday, the scale said I gained the 3.2 kilos I had lost. I also gained 8% of my body fat back!!! I don't think our slight eating discretions could have amounted to that much weight gain. I don't even think I ate 3.2 kilos of food from Tuesday to Saturday. Maybe karaoke is fattening... If you find out anything good, let me know. My books from Amazon should be coming in the next week or so and as soon as I finish with the Allen Carr book, I'm passing it on to you. Hope it is good stuff. Maybe there is something simple that we are missing.

Re: *rolls eyes*

[abiona_sashenka]

Yeah, I think mine was a good 2-3 kilo difference, too. WTF? That's a LOT. Perhaps the alcohol just led to water retention or something... drink lots of H2O this week and we'll see what happens next Monday.

There's only one thing to do, and that's get back on the horse/wagon/insert-metaphor-related-noun-here.

Read your smoking book first! ;->

[mmmmuffin]

if you be my sugar mama, i'll move over there and be the support and what not. i'll cook delicious healthy meals and pack your lunch....

hrmmm... i really don't know what to tell you... i think one of the things that add up is a little snack here and a little snack here, unless it's something uber-healthy like fresh veggies... blargh, tell me what i can do to help, even though i'm so fruggin far away....

[abiona_sashenka]

I am busily purging my house of all snacks... but then when I go and look for food, I get cranky because I have nothing to snack on... but I think I'll get over that eventually. Honestly, I think that's a symptom of withdrawal, which is TOTALLY fucked up. I am addicted to snacking so much so that I am having withdrawal symptoms. SO fucked up.

[mmmmuffin]

snack on veggies? like celery or carrots or cucumbers or peppers?

[abiona_sashenka]

Fresh veggies here are ridiculously expensive... I think my best bet is just not to snack at all, but we'll see how that goes.