i suck at updating and doing what i said i was going to do on this thing. right now i wont update my day. im just updating on what im feeling bc its something so strong its hard to do anything about ( Read more... )

its getting hard again. i think because im back to being alone, and i dont have melissa to entertain me and help me through all the tough moments its back again. also konwing where he is now does not help. this has seriously been the hardest thing i have ever had to do. and i dont like it. i just wonder if hes feeling the same way ( Read more... )

as i was sitting here thinking about having to write which day it was up to already, and i wrote out 3, i thought about how fast this was all going. then i realized theres just about ten more posts to write. therefore the quick feeling has past. which is honestly a bit upsetting ( Read more... )

"The best 5 mins and 52 seconds in a long time ( Read more... )

So i've been up since 3 am. tom texted me when he got into the car so we could talk before he gets on the plane. we texted until 6:30 am. his flight to japan was cancelled. im still not sure about the specfics and details. he didnt know and i still dont. once he landed in california he texted me until 5:30. that was the last i heard from him. im ( Read more... )

So I've decied that while Tom goes away to the oritent.. or the suburb of it.. I'll keep a little journal. This one seemed to be the right one to do it. So just to let it be known, i'll pictures and what i've done that day. and of course, as always thoughts. So for the next 12 days, get used to me ( Read more... )

Its an ugly thing kids. I know no one really reads this journal,or atleast i think no one really does... but at any rate.. you should really try to not be so ignorant. About anything, its an ugly thing and its not well liked ( Read more... )

So everyday on myspace i will post a new item i would like for my b-day. which is in exactly one month. however, i'll just post what i know i want now, here. Links only, sorry kids ( Read more... )

no point in the headline. im just werid ( Read more... )

why is it that everything is just going wrong lately? is just that nothing i want can ever happen and im just going to have to settle for whatever is apprently already planned out for me? cant i make some minor adjustments? adjustments to make me feel better, to want to be alive, to want to go out and be human? why cant things just go a little bit ( Read more... )