for a new live journal, my life is diffrent now and i think i need somthing new to show that. and im more secretive so its going to be friends only and only some people will have it because i only want sertian people to know

time for a new lj?
maybe
new chapter in my life fresh start?

well kat's fiance died today in a horrible car crash, i knew him its taking everything i have no to start balling we wernt that close but there where times when he would call me crying and i would talk to him, it makes me so happy that everyone of my close friends and family are safe i love and miss you all ( Read more... )

okay so its my turn. im not going to start drama, i dont care who responds to what just dont be mean to each other im going to tell it like it is and be blunt, im going to write what i think and if you dont like it oh well i warned you ahead of time ( Read more... )

im a whore, only not really...i cant help it if he likes me better or if i look better? can i? hm maybe i am in the wrong but right now i dont care im in that place where im looking out for myself and if its not what others like well to bad for them ( Read more... )

bah 24 hour duty sucks, but i wont complain this is my job and i must do it ( Read more... )

She is my best friend and yet she treats me like shit sometimes, not all the time but some times times when she dosnt realize that i need her. she dosnt see it because shes to caught up in herself to see it. maybe im doing the same thing maybe she needs me but i dont see it and i should. i dont know sometimes its hard for me to tell because she ( Read more... )

im lazy ( Read more... )

ive been really busy. took my friend to the airport to go to iraq the other day and she couldnt leave so shes stuck out there 4 hours away with no one. im working right now pulling 24 hour CQ fun shit...not really. i get off at 9am and its now 12am so only 9 more hours woohoo ive been watching season 3 of the oc im almost done with it, i have 5 ( Read more... )

this manic shit kills me, i cant sleep lol i hardly sleep but im so tired i cant fall asleep and i have nightmares now. fuck

so one of my good friends is going to iraq i had to take her :( i miss her

when i look at myself i feel like throwing up :( is that normal?