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bah 24 hour duty sucks, but i wont complain this is my job and i must do it.
so yesterday i went for a drive,alone. and i thought what in my life do i have to be so upset about? i mean look at it, im serving my country, keeping me friends and family save, i have a job, a placd to live, food, a car, hardly any bills, i have loved ones, counsling, medication, motivation, and well a decent live as of now. i dont know why i bitch about it so much. i need to stop holding on to the past and the pain, get over it and let it go. i think i will work on it with my theripist. i need to live for now, and instead of being upset about everything thats not right with my life i need to change it so its what i want. so thats what i shall do. now the question is what DO i want?
i want to be skinnier
i want to be a better person
i want someone to love and to love me
thats it. the last one i cant really change it just has to come and i think ive accepted that. plus i have my two best friends in the world to fill the spot of any man. and my heart is taken by a boy already i am just waiting for him as of now. but the other two i can work on. who wants to help me?
forget what i wrote before i DONT need anyone to save me i CAN save myself
so yesterday i went for a drive,alone. and i thought what in my life do i have to be so upset about? i mean look at it, im serving my country, keeping me friends and family save, i have a job, a placd to live, food, a car, hardly any bills, i have loved ones, counsling, medication, motivation, and well a decent live as of now. i dont know why i bitch about it so much. i need to stop holding on to the past and the pain, get over it and let it go. i think i will work on it with my theripist. i need to live for now, and instead of being upset about everything thats not right with my life i need to change it so its what i want. so thats what i shall do. now the question is what DO i want?
i want to be skinnier
i want to be a better person
i want someone to love and to love me
thats it. the last one i cant really change it just has to come and i think ive accepted that. plus i have my two best friends in the world to fill the spot of any man. and my heart is taken by a boy already i am just waiting for him as of now. but the other two i can work on. who wants to help me?
forget what i wrote before i DONT need anyone to save me i CAN save myself