in a season one rescue me episode one of the characters a fireman goes to a support group for people affected by the tragedies of september 11. after he shares his firsthand account of what happened on that day he learns that none of the other people in the group including the head of it had been there or had a family member or a friend die or even ( Read more... )

oh also i meant to say that true love consists of staying up until ten am with my boyfriend putting up the christmas tree watching it's a wonderful life and playing rudolph monopoly. without drugs. in june.

i find it disheartening how quickly we dismiss love as soon as it is gone. we describe it as something else or a mistake or a misunderstanding when in reality love is the sixth sense and it is ever evolving. when i was eighteen my understanding of love was matthew. he gave me everything that i needed at that point in my life even if i made it seem ( Read more... )

nothing compares to this. nothing could. i couldn't be happier really.

dear elliot yamin,

i love you. come home to mama. i will dry your tears.

love, marina

tomorrow i begin to write another chapter in my life. i wonder why sometimes people simply say "... begins a new chapter" without giving proper credit to the author? maybe to mask shame over the content or to protect against ridicule but these are things that i either don't feel or easily expel. it is important to know that these are my actions and ( Read more... )

tonight my mother meets my boyfriend which is both the most exciting and the most terrifying thing ever. be'cos though i think she will love him it has never mattered to me before whether she liked a boy or not be'cos i knew nothing would ever come to anything with any of them and also most of the time i didn't like the boys either. but i like this ( Read more... )

if you'd have told me six years i ago i would have my own toothbrush at this boy's house and i would be able to poop there haha i would have laughed at you. or thrown up. equally as entertaining i imagine.

i had a very bad day tuesday be'cos it was everywhere i looked. in the news. in my diary. on a reality tv show. i could smell it in my nose. i could feel my pulse quicken and i could feel it on my lips. it's a different urge than cigarettes be'cos it's borne of my thoughts and not a manual habit. i know it will never go away and that bothers me but ( Read more... )

what about a boy who rents fantasia 2000 and is so fucking brilliant that he knows what music will better sync up with donald duck and noah than disney does and who pours me drinks like there isn't enough time left to be drunk in the world and who is the first person to accept my invitation for a dance party ever and who knows about my eyes and who ( Read more... )