It's okay to slip up. It happens, and is part of the process of healing and actually stopping the bad habit(s). Don't beat yourself up about it. Now you know even more deeply just how much you want to stop and not hurt yourself like this.
It sounds like you need some sort of outlet, and no wonder with surgery and everything! It can be triggering to feel so helpless. Can you throw some stuffies? Or paint or draw or something? Maybe doing that, or something similar that's not harmful for you, would help. Just a thought.
I do need an outlet. For me I have always needed something physical to let off stress. I do enjoy painting as well, so I really need to start trying that when I feel like this.
It is hard not to get down over this...It is triggering me to feel helpless. Thanks for your advice, it really does help
::big safe hugs:: Yes, twice this week you slipped up - but there were over 365 days when you didn't. Every day you can avoid cutting is a victory, and every time you make a mistake, no matter how horrible it makes you feel (I feel horrible when I slip up, too!) remember that.
365 vs. 2
That, to me, is a huge victory. That's 365 days you beat it compared to two days when it was too overwhelming. You can do it, and it's okay that you slip up - we all do.
I really appreciate your perspective. It is hard to not see this as a huge failure. But the way you said it makes sense...I was cutting everyday or twice a day, compared to twice a year. Thanks -stac
It was a perspective passed on to me when I did a similar thing - over a year without SI, and then I fell into it pretty heavy for a while - so I'm happy to pass it on. Every day you get through is a victory :)
I was a cutter all through high school, and tried to stop when I was in an abusive relationship. In the end, I cut again, and continued to do so. All through high school I would try to stop and then slip up and think, "Well, hell, I've already fucked up. Oh well."
I haven't cut in 3 years and 18 days. It doesn't mean that I'm not sometimes triggered to want to, but I've made it. It will happen for you, when the time is right and when you are in a safe place (physically and emotionally).
Take care of yourself the best way possible. You have strength to overcome it. Sometimes it just takes awhile. ♥
I try not to think about it in terms of X days since I cut. Because while it might give me that little more pressure not to each day, it makes it such an overwhelming failure when I do. Instead, I've found that thinking about the X days when I coped some other way makes every day, regardless, seem like a success because I know I did my best. This weekend I had one day when I coped by not going to a birthday party, drinking a lot of tea and asking my boyfriend for quiet time. That, to me, is a victory far beyond how ever many days it's been since I cut
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It sounds like you need some sort of outlet, and no wonder with surgery and everything! It can be triggering to feel so helpless. Can you throw some stuffies? Or paint or draw or something? Maybe doing that, or something similar that's not harmful for you, would help. Just a thought.
Safe hugs hon.
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It is hard not to get down over this...It is triggering me to feel helpless.
Thanks for your advice, it really does help
-stac
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365 vs. 2
That, to me, is a huge victory. That's 365 days you beat it compared to two days when it was too overwhelming. You can do it, and it's okay that you slip up - we all do.
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Thanks
-stac
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I haven't cut in 3 years and 18 days. It doesn't mean that I'm not sometimes triggered to want to, but I've made it. It will happen for you, when the time is right and when you are in a safe place (physically and emotionally).
Take care of yourself the best way possible. You have strength to overcome it. Sometimes it just takes awhile. ♥
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