My Story...

[puss_in_boots36]

I've posted here before, but not with my

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[magic730dreams]

I was told the same type of things when I started to remember, and I found out that I was abused when I was younger. That doesn't mean you were, but it's worth looking into. But stay safe babe! :-) -Brittany

[magic730dreams]

yes, thank you. A lot better. :-)

[puss_in_boots36]

oh... *minor detail* I was admitted to a mental hospital about a week ago because of a couple bouts of rage I had... after which I was pretty quickly released, because I'm able to surpress it very well. I never told them what was wrong, so they could never trigger me.

Two weeks ago, I realized I was raped two and a half years ago. This triggered some unstability, which climaxed a couple times, last sunday and monday. (see above)

sorry, that was pretty nonsensical. but... yeah. it's a feeling I get, that I have something hidden... and I want to find out what it is, because of this intense rage the rape provokes.

[puss_in_boots36]

mmm... sounds wonderful.

[mybisl2]

I have memory issues as well. I know I wasn't molested, I just don't have the best memory. I can remember far back, but I can't remember much until I was much older

[puss_in_boots36]

:hug back:

thanks. yeah... my psychologist was worried about planting memories, so she was pretty cautious about actually recommending it to me, but I had some out-of-context, odd memories that I told her that made her wonder a little bit.

part of it, too, is that it seems so... dramatic. *sigh*

I don't know. I think I want to try the hypnotherapy.

[envisionjustice]

I think I want to try hypnotherapy too. Or maybe EMDR - soemthing to do with eye movement that helps with clarity, and possinly clarity of memories... I don't know. It's hard to tell what's for real and might work, and what's just bullshit. I don't know.

[puss_in_boots36]

yeah, my therapist also brought up EMDR, although I'm not completely sure what it is.