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puss_in_boots36 in _survivors_

My Story...

Apr 04, 2005 16:12

I've posted here before, but not with my ( actual story )

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mybisl2 April 4 2005, 16:48:48 UTC

I have memory issues as well. I know I wasn't molested, I just don't have the best memory. I can remember far back, but I can't remember much until I was much older ( ... )

puss_in_boots36 April 4 2005, 19:33:25 UTC

:hug back:

thanks. yeah... my psychologist was worried about planting memories, so she was pretty cautious about actually recommending it to me, but I had some out-of-context, odd memories that I told her that made her wonder a little bit.

part of it, too, is that it seems so... dramatic. *sigh*

I don't know. I think I want to try the hypnotherapy.

envisionjustice April 4 2005, 20:43:33 UTC

I think I want to try hypnotherapy too. Or maybe EMDR - soemthing to do with eye movement that helps with clarity, and possinly clarity of memories... I don't know. It's hard to tell what's for real and might work, and what's just bullshit. I don't know.

puss_in_boots36 April 4 2005, 21:10:50 UTC

yeah, my therapist also brought up EMDR, although I'm not completely sure what it is.

innana88 April 5 2005, 12:26:57 UTC

it is staring at the tip of the pen while they wave it back and forth in front of your eyes as you process certain memories. it may work for some. it didn't work and the therapist got upset with me for blocking it. i in turn got pissed at her. i didn't like her so that probably had something to do with why it wasn't working. i found someone else who doesn't do that and have made a lot of progress reconnecting with memories i had blocked out in other ways, journaling over and over again with the fragments i do have while writing in first person present tense works the best for me.

puss_in_boots36 April 5 2005, 18:10:42 UTC

your therapist got mad at you? now that, dear, seems like bullshit. that's completely counterproductive... maybe you had a shitty therapist, lol.

what other methods have you used?

innana88 April 9 2005, 10:58:31 UTC

Yes indeed. That was my last session with her. I have since found a therapist that doesn't push me...that spent what seemed like forever building a trusting relationship before she even attempted to talk to me about this stuff. I TOTALLY trust her. She has me journal and retell the story as if I am right there in the moment to help me reconnect to the feelings and the memories. It seems to work. I've recalled much more and it has brought up a lot of shitty feelings that were buried for years...but I knew it would get worse before it got better. Now it is getting better. I'm on the upswing (I think).

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