ive decided to take the job at the big saver corporate office. i will be a receptionist. it pays little more than my cashier job but i have weekends/holidays off and insurance for my son.

i feel like this is a step in the right direction.

im so tired. time for bed.

dont you know that its true that for me and for you the world is a ghetto

i remember listening to this on repeat for hours. what the fuck, im such a pussy now. with my braids and indian jewelry. these past few days ive been working on finding a happy medium ( Read more... )

im eating boo berry cereal and its like having 'FUCK YEAH' in a bowl.

i have decided that from now on when i am feeling particularly rotund i will only refer to myself as Porker Posey.

hope all is well for you out in livejournal land.

xo, mo

ps:oscar i miss you.

i did not get the job. i feel like i am slowly unraveling. or more accuratley like ive unraveled slowly ( Read more... )

i got offered a job that pays double what im making right now. the only catch is that i would have to leave before miles woke up and i would be getting back just in time to get him ready for bed.

im really stressed right now and weighing the options.

in addition to clothes and random trinkets, miles will be getting the following for christmas:


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the following is a short film written by miranda july and directed by miguel arteta that i have completely fallen in love with. it is only about four and a half minutes long so it wont take up too much of your time.

( are you the favorite person of anybody? )

sometimes when you step back and take stock you realize you care about people for all the wrong reasons and time is a very innacurate measure of friendship

i was supposed to be out celebrating tonight, oh fucken well.

I GOT A JOB AT A GROCERY STORE!

the sadness over no longer being able to spend every waking second with my son is competing with the elation over being one step closer to getting an apaertment for us and finally being the kind of mom he can respect/deserves.

sometimes things happen so fast that they dont really have a chance to sink in. it always hits you at the dtrangest times. everything will be seemingly fine, or at least normal, and all of a sudden youre a mess because you realize 'my life is totally shit right now.' &then you almost feel like you cant freak out because the storm has passed and it ( Read more... )