i wish i were dead.
i did not get the job. i feel like i am slowly unraveling. or more accuratley like ive unraveled slowly.
it seems a bit silly to write these things in my livejournal but im not really in the mood to confront that part of my brain that desperatley wants me to grow up right now.
i am hoping things are on the mend, because i am just not into being depressed anymore. its been done. redone. overdone. im done with it, you know? i dont know.
tonight i realized that i love james just about as much as i hate him. but all in all i appreciate him and the role he has played in my life both negative and positive.
on that note i am having similarly strange feelings about/reflections on everything and everyone in my life right now.
i really want to cry. this entry was really weak and repetitive.
that is all livejournal, goodnight.
it seems a bit silly to write these things in my livejournal but im not really in the mood to confront that part of my brain that desperatley wants me to grow up right now.
i am hoping things are on the mend, because i am just not into being depressed anymore. its been done. redone. overdone. im done with it, you know? i dont know.
tonight i realized that i love james just about as much as i hate him. but all in all i appreciate him and the role he has played in my life both negative and positive.
on that note i am having similarly strange feelings about/reflections on everything and everyone in my life right now.
i really want to cry. this entry was really weak and repetitive.
that is all livejournal, goodnight.