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sometimes things happen so fast that they dont really have a chance to sink in. it always hits you at the dtrangest times. everything will be seemingly fine, or at least normal, and all of a sudden youre a mess because you realize 'my life is totally shit right now.' &then you almost feel like you cant freak out because the storm has passed and it would just seem really wierd.
i just want to listen to piero and smoke cigarettes and maybe die. but i cant because im sick and shouldnt be smoking and have no cigarettes anyway, and fucken andy has my piero cd and im probably never going to get it back which i might be okay with but no im really not and i have a baby whos suvival depends on my being alive.
maybe ill just cry alot or something.
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i just want to listen to piero and smoke cigarettes and maybe die. but i cant because im sick and shouldnt be smoking and have no cigarettes anyway, and fucken andy has my piero cd and im probably never going to get it back which i might be okay with but no im really not and i have a baby whos suvival depends on my being alive.
maybe ill just cry alot or something.
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