Oh, man. Wish he was real. This is what I think my Daemon should be like.

The anniversary of Ian's death is here, and I'm still fluctuating between 'OMG, it can't be true' and finding it difficult to even remember what it was like to live with a significant other. I had several stiff drinks last night because I thought I wouldn't sleep too well and I probably would have slept soundly, but Timothy had a nightmare at 1. ( Read more... )

Its getting closer and closer to the anniversary of Ian's death and its strange how I feel like I'm almost obsessing over the date. Every second thought is on it; even the weather is making me think of it ( Read more... )

Oh. Dear. Lord. This has to be the funniest thing I have seen all year - thank you oyjooles for posting it!

Makes me damn proud to be a New Zealander!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q-l93gltkCc

Gardening this time of year is The Best Thing Ever. Spring is wonderful.

I feel sick. I've just gone and booked (and paid for) tickets to visit New Zealand later on this year. I shouldn't feel sick, afterall it's just a holiday. I'm not packing up and leaving the UK permanently. But I do feel horrible now that I have booked ( Read more... )

It snowed over night and we woke up to around an inch and a half of powder snow. The kids were delighted as the schools had warned that they may shut if it did snow. They were less impressed when their schools weren't on the list of those closed in Sussex. As usual the snow created chaos. I couldn't get the car out because we are on a hill and ( Read more... )

I've obviously become soft as I'm having trouble dealing with this cold snap. I absolutely froze yesterday, both in and out of the office. This morning it was colder and the kids all grumbled on the walk down to the station. The youngest lad was crying by the time we got there - he doesn't seem to cope well with the cold. I had to bribe him to ( Read more... )

I took my wedding ring off last night for the first time since I got married back in 1993. It felt odd to have it off, but it didn't feel wrong. I only removed it for a few minutes and didn't even put it down, just held it and looked at it and remembered when Ian put it on my finger. Its back on now. I think I will continue to wear it even ( Read more... )

Some days I just want to scream and scream and scream until my throat explodes. I hate those days.