This is my 200th update! Whooo?

I don't really know. I feel weird. I get ridiculous thoughts in my head and I can't let them go. It's like my mind is a terrier that won't learn the command, 'leave it." So annoying. I should really figure out a way to just not think for a little while.

In other news, I went surfing yesterday. It's fun just to paddle ( Read more... )

I'm such a Christmas jerk this year. The combination of ennui (my word of choice currently) and my ever-present need to be liked (or in this case, praised) has fueled my gift-giving this year. This has resulted in my desire to give coming not from a good, loving place, but from a place in me that requires some sort of vindication, like by giving ( Read more... )

I am not dead, just terribly disconnected with the world.

For how uninteresting my life its, I'm really really enjoying it.

My dreams were so bizarre last night. Brandon was there, which was odd, as I haven't had a dream about him in a very long time ( Read more... )

Oh yeah, and my mom got married last week.

I also moved out of her house.

Okay, seriously.

I REALLY need to stop having dreams about being pregnant. NOT COOL BRAIN.

I also don't like how excited/not freaked out I am about being pregnant in my dreams.

I pretty much had every intention of never writing in this ever again. But writing is something of an addiction that I only indulge in from time to time.

Every day, I'm discovering more and more how important you are to me, how much I need you. I was afraid of losing you once, but now I'm not so scared, because I know you love me too. This is ( Read more... )

Hmm, I want to say something. Maybe tomorrow. Tomorrow seems like it should be a special day, it's a Friday and a leap year. Reason enough for something to happen, maybe? We'll see.

And just like that, I'm twenty.

Weird.

Okay, I had to share this somewhere, I thought it was so funny!

So in wandering around Facebook, I was looking at a group's wall and I found this spam post:
"I'm seeking a wonderful one to be my dreamlovers, I have been told I'm attractive Muslim ,with sparkling eyes, a beautiful smile and is required to invite you to my world to view hot videos, ( Read more... )