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jimmydean5 in _ftm_

A Question

Feb 01, 2008 00:15

Hi guys. I'm questioning going through with transitioning. During this questioning process, I am reflecting upon some life experiences, and I'm wondering if others can relate. As a kid, I felt 100% male and the fact that my body said otherwise was a source of confusion, shame, and generally being a pissed off and very macho kid. When puberty ( Read more... )

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rowanhood February 2 2008, 12:04:36 UTC

I definitely can ( ... )

Sympathize poeticdirtmusic May 22 2009, 19:34:54 UTC

Hey i know what you mean i am 19 years old and when i turned 14 i started to become more 'girly' to fit societies expectations, the girls at my high school would have to constantly remind themselves they attended an ALL girls catholic school, often i got teased about my appearance ( ... )

Re: Sympathize jimmydean5 May 25 2009, 20:14:13 UTC

Well I have been transitioning now for quite some time since I posted this. I gave up the act. :) By transitioning I am doing the right thing for myself, I have no doubts.

You say that you fit very well into society the way you are, as a "straight woman." I have found that the longer I progress into this transition (i.e. the longer I'm on T, living as male, etc.) the better able I am to see how I *didn't* fit as well as I had thought I did. I was uncomfortable in many ways, but I had numbed myself so thoroughly to my discomfort.

You say that all your thoughts revolve around transitioning. I think that is a major clue to the course of action you should take! As a caveat though: my life experience should not dictate your choices. Also, while I do I think (given the limited info you've supplied here) that transition is likely best for you...it is your life.

I wish I'd started transition at 19. I waited a few more years after 19. If I had a time machine, I would choose to get those years back.

Best wishes!

thegrandefacade November 21 2014, 02:13:34 UTC

I'm in this space right now. And I've had a REALLY long time to build that solid woman self. But I feel like I'm acting all the time.

I have the same question as you. It's why I've just come to LJ in hopes to find some answers.

I'd love to see what you get for responses, and if you want a friend, feel free to add me.