my sleeping pattern is so fucked up. I just think about things way too much when i get into my bed, and last night i was still awake at seven a.m. when the sun came up. music just keeps me awake, but i can't turn it off because then all i can hear is my room mate making disgusting noises in her sleep. i feel bad for saying that and paranoid that ( Read more... )

i don't know what to wear.

i don't like having friends. at all. i like being free
and laying in my bed and reading books and not
dealing with things. i have never met a person who
didn't annoy me. and right now, i really wish i didn't
have friends.

i hate school.

i could not be happier that it is february.
and that february leads to march and march
to april and april to may and may to summer.
i do not know what i need a break from but
i am sure that where i am going to get a break
i will soon need a break from it too. i just
can not be content the way that some
people can.

I DO BAD THINGS.

half of my heart just wants to quit college and get a job and do things. i had a dream last night about being in England and today i have it in my head all day. i looked up airline tickets to London and they are just so ungodly expensive. and i'm just a college student with a bank account that barely touches 1000 dollars. that doesn't do much for a ( Read more... )

i just got pulled over for the first time in my almost ( Read more... )

I am letting things eat me alive again.
and it is really something strange to deal with
or not deal with in my case since i usually
do nothing about it. go after what you want,
chloe! figure out what you want first maybe...
holy shit. someone deal with this.

DON'T GO; i'll eat you up, i love you so.