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[_and_i_said]

in truth, i am a being both of habit and of change. i have randomly noticed this over the past week, and really writing can be quite cathartic; i don't know why i don't do it more often. well that's not technically true, but let's continue anyways

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[neurotoxicdoll]

I don't know if I'm good enough at words to say what I'm trying to say, but I'll give it a shot.
I don't know you, but from what I've read up there, it looks like you're running away from people so they don't hurt you. It's like if you haven't talked to someone for years, and give them a call right now, you'll have to share your world with theirs, which, in the very least, will bring the need of your attention, emotion, and energy. I don't know... I mean, come on, look at me, I spend too much time trying to make other people happy and totally forgetting the fact that I can't do anything unless they want to be happy. And then what happens? When/if this one time I'm not there for them, I'm a bad friend. I've been hurt so much I don't even feel the stabs anymore.

Where am I going with this? Nowhere really, sorry. Typical Simay.

[stugurl]

im pretty sure that i have plenty to say in response to this, but im also pretty sure that i shouldnt.
or maybe its just i shouldnt say it right now, i dont know. im sure if you really want to know, youll ask.

however, i will say that you cannot possibly get out of being my friend & i am here for you if you need me, even if you are partly right about the monster part.

though im sure thats just me speaking out of the crack thats recently appeared in muscles that we dont mention for fear of sounding way too emo. its got the same voice thats screaming about you never loving me.

but i digress, the point of this was to say that im sure youll find that the people that matter most (which would be the ones closest to me) will understand why i am acting the way that i am, therefore wont completely want to rip your head off. above & beyond that, all i can say is - were friends. good friends. its going to stay that way. the end.

[lippincott]

something i've been thinking a lot about lately is how our understanding of others is limited to our own understanding of ourselves and whatever succeeding overlap exists. i guess in that vein i think that a lot of the insight i've offered over time has been due to my experience with the discomforts and various emotional purgatories you've described on a personal level that is reflective of what you go through and are going through, etc. i know have the same tendency to put some other face to the world or not even leave my room. i think we have different forms of escape and catharsis, but in general, my writing and self-seriousness isn't much different in the purpose than playing modo all night (which i have also done, and you are also a writer) -- to disappear, as ashman would say, "essentially

[ben_aka_god]

Modo is down now! So i guess that gives me time to respond to this post! Also you should not be worried about me because i will be going to hawaii in march :teach:.

Love, Ben

P.S. Everyone else was making serious posts so i had to make a less serious post even though i am in a serious clan.

[vampire_dream]

i already told iu if im down there, and everything is alrght we (u, me, simay, and the awesome heather) will have a party

but lets correct one thing im far from interesting