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[_and_i_said]

in truth, i am a being both of habit and of change. i have randomly noticed this over the past week, and really writing can be quite cathartic; i don't know why i don't do it more often. well that's not technically true, but let's continue anyways

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[lippincott]

something i've been thinking a lot about lately is how our understanding of others is limited to our own understanding of ourselves and whatever succeeding overlap exists. i guess in that vein i think that a lot of the insight i've offered over time has been due to my experience with the discomforts and various emotional purgatories you've described on a personal level that is reflective of what you go through and are going through, etc. i know have the same tendency to put some other face to the world or not even leave my room. i think we have different forms of escape and catharsis, but in general, my writing and self-seriousness isn't much different in the purpose than playing modo all night (which i have also done, and you are also a writer) -- to disappear, as ashman would say, "essentially."

i guess the whole point of this is to say that when i have been dead on i have been seeing myself, or my experiences and understanding, reflected in yours & what that all adds up to is that greater overlap and insight that you speak of. it's all just a mirror, really. and not to say that i've gone beyond all these worries and melted into some other mode of being, but i can honestly say that if you push yourself and try and aren't afraid to walk through various metaphorical hells you will reach some sort of worthwhile destination, however removed or close to your present state of being it may be.

you know i'm always around to talk and fall back on if you need anything. i think the nature of good, long-term friendship is that it morphs into casual, spontaneous, and exciting interactions interspersed throughout the year, as well as providing that fallback net when someone is in need. having someone removed from the day is difficult, even with online and magic and all that, and i understand because we both have our own lives now and that's something we should be proud of. we can always find comfort or solace or whatever in our friendship and communication, and that's not something you or i have to justify wanting.

let me know if there's anything i can do.