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KTHX. XOXOXO.

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KTHX <3<3

PAST:My life scince june 7th has been: overdoses, comedowns, sobriety, making out, loud music, road trips, listening to your friends call you at 5am in the morning coming down when i know i'm not snae enough to deal with it, poverty (yet there's always enough money for drugs), marridge (not mine), alcoholism, anxiety, laughing way too hard, missing ( Read more... )

Forgive my abscence, I have been an insomniac, sitting on friend's balconies watching the first plane of the morning fly overhead ( Read more... )

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I saw the first girl i ever loved today, the only girl who ever had the power to make me want to bleed til i fade away. She had tacky blonde hair, stilettos and pink lipgloss. She used to wear lace petticoats with 'Kurt Lives' graffitied over them, blood red lip gloss and eyeliner smudged so thick my fingers could never smudge it off. She broke my ( Read more... )

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We arrive two hours early, there are guitar solos filtering out the door, enticing us like a lover with open arms. A roadie who looked stoned and smiled gently told us we could watch the sound check. The lights wind around the room, the strobe light making our movements fractured and robotic. The bands (The Butterfly Effect, Degrees K & Japunga) ( Read more... )

Last night i took some pills and talked too much, danced so fast and made out with a girl who knew about backstage romances because she'd been there before. Fairylights blinked and Holly wore a tiara and a tutu, because it was her birthday and she could do what she wanted. My stockings were scratched by spiked bracelets, my lipgloss smeared and it ( Read more... )