I need to put up a solid facade that doesn't show any signs of pain.
No emotions.
  Vanity vanity vanity.
I need to pretend that everything's okay and that nothing is wrong. Maybe I'll start to believe it myself?
  Smile smile smile.
No scars, no comfort-eating-bulimic-fat-tummy.
  No signs of painPlease, just let me shut myself down ( Read more... )

  stuff I need. new black tights, the (almost) Perfect pair that I own have a tiny hole now ( Read more... )

I'm tired of being the good girl. People introduce me: this is Annelie. She's never been drunk, smoked or done any other drug. I don't even think she drinks coffee (You do? Oh ok.) Once she ran away from home, kind of, she only left a note on the fridge. I don't think she's ever had sex either (glances at me as if to make sure).It bothers me that I ( Read more... )

( vanity )

School starts on the 23rd. I'm looking forward to almost all the subjects I'll study this year. My last year.

Maybe, just maybe, I should finish all the stuff I didn't do last year before school starts and I get new assignments. Maybe that would be a great idea.

. I shouldn't hang out with my ex because the way he smells (hugo boss? + cigarettes) reminds me of kisses.
. From now on, I should always bring a sweater if I plan to stay out later than 7 pm.
. Don't eat lots of chocolate cake, it makes you feel ill.

I will probably become addicted to passive smoking.
& I don't really mind

It puzzles me why any guy would continue to smoke when it says on the package that smoking damages the sperms.

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Today I found out the results from the blood test. I have a B12 deficiency. My doctor sent a recipe thing to the pharmacy, so I'll pick up the pills tomorrow on the way from the psychologist. My mother wants me to eat more dairy, and I just can't explain to her why I don't like it.