I am thankful to know the best guy in the world.

Well, I have decided this feeling will never go away. Never. I honestly feel like I am already in hell.

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Hooray! The OMG ME AND RUSS BROKE UP I LOST THE LOVE OF MY LIFE shaky feeling has been replaced by the OMG I AM SO NERVOUS BECAUSE A GUY ASKED ME OUT shaky feeling, which is one hundred times better. I think. I heard the guy was a player, but a player's gonna get plaaaaayed.

I can't explain it, but for the past few days I've felt GREAT. I love hanging out with my friends, I really missed it. I feel much more confident now which is totally opposite of how I thought I would be feeling. I've just been really praying that I would be happy, that Russ would be happy, and whatever needs to happen would happen. And I guess ( Read more... )

I feel like I have nothing to look forward to anymore.
I was so happy and had EVERYTHING.

WHY THE FUCK DID I HAVE TO MESS IT UP?! I can't stand that this is all my fault.

Russ just broke up with me.

Obviously I am a horrible person who brings Russ down with me.

Uggggggh Thanksgiving is so boring.

I HAAAAAAAAATE BAD DREAMS.

I used to obsess about my looks, and now I don't care.
What a big weight off my shoulders!