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I can't explain it, but for the past few days I've felt GREAT. I love hanging out with my friends, I really missed it. I feel much more confident now which is totally opposite of how I thought I would be feeling. I've just been really praying that I would be happy, that Russ would be happy, and whatever needs to happen would happen. And I guess this break up might have been a good thing...for now. I really think you can love someone TOO much. I guess we both wanted too much control of each other. And I'm okay that we are not together. I still love him very much, I just really can't see him or talk to him because that might make me upset. Maybe in the future sometime we can be friends, though. Honestly, this feels great. I should NOT be feeling this way. But, I am. And I am glad.