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So lately, I've been thinking about what I want to do with myself ( Read more... )

He KNOWS I don't like her. HE KNOWS I DON'T WANT YOU TALKING TO HER.
so he goes and does it behind my back?
And you want me to trust you?
I talked to Ryan TWICE since we've been back together.
And this girl is still calling you and texting you.
Yeah, I broke up with you for Ryan. BIG MISTAKE. I get that.
But you went and FUCKED another girl.
You say it " ( Read more... )

I really..just can't trust anyone anymore.
Seriously.
Jon is the only person I can trust.
Or talk too.

I'm just so...done with everyone.
I'm so ready to grow up.

YOU CUT TOO.
so what makes you any different than me?
Atleast, I know I have a real vagina. And I use it.
And don't pretend to be a fucking boy like you.
Cause honestly, your doing a really fucking bad job at it.
Everyone is finding out your secret. Even your girlfriend knows buddy.
That's why you guys have never had sex. I'm not stupid. I hear ( Read more... )

How does it feel to know you're everything I need
The butterflies in my stomach
They could bring me to my knees
How does it feel to know you're everything I want
I've got a hard time saying this
So I'll sing it in a song

Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to ( Read more... )

I get mad over dumb shit.
Oh well.
I have to learn to deal.
I just hate how people make plans with me, then totally, don't even call me back. Or anything. And then when I call, don't answer their phones.
I just need sleep.
It's been a long weekend.
I love my boyfriend, so fucking much. <3
And I love my friends.
And my new bra. bahahaha.

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Fuck the job at the porn store.
Apparently I didn't learn everything fast enough cause I'm an idiot.

Now I'm in a massive horrible situation that I don't know how to get myself out of.

FUCK.

I barely got through it alive the first time.
Now I have to go through it again?

I don't think I can do this. I really don't think i can.
I'm not strong enough right now. I wasn't then either.
But i'm so weak now, i can barely make it through the day without crying.

I haven't been sleeping..eating..or anything.
Just drinking, smoking, doing drugs, and ( Read more... )

I'm so numb.
I need to choose.

I finally got a job at a porn store.
fuck yes. <3