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He KNOWS I don't like her. HE KNOWS I DON'T WANT YOU TALKING TO HER.
so he goes and does it behind my back?
And you want me to trust you?
I talked to Ryan TWICE since we've been back together.
And this girl is still calling you and texting you.
Yeah, I broke up with you for Ryan. BIG MISTAKE. I get that.
But you went and FUCKED another girl.
You say it "was to try and get over me"
But obviously, you had some type of feelings.
You once told me.."I don't do anything with a girl past kissing unless I think of them as my girlfriend."
Well, techinically, we've been together since Feburary then.
And your apparently dating her too.
How can you tell me you love me.
Look into my eyes and tell me your not talking to her.
And she tells me you still are.
Hmmm. Weird isn't it. And when she calls when I'm with you, you get all defensive and shit..And then delete her number from your phone.
Real slick. Like I don't know what's going on. You underestimate me. And when I try to talk to you about it, you get all pissed off and start to be a dick to me. Okay, maybe I am a little insecure about it. I know I FUCKED UP but I'm still terrified your going to go and do something back to me.
I don't know.
Now, I'm going to close my heart back up. Because I don't feel like getting hurt. Not by you. I don't think I could go through something like that with you. You would completely destroy me. Break me down into little fragments. Completely tear my heart into 2. I really don't think I could put myself back together if you did do that to me. I really wish I wasn't insecure. I wish I didn't feel this way. FUCK FUCK FUCK.
How do I make this one right? We don't have any problems until someone mentions her name. That's it. That's all we fight about. Is HER. I know she shouldn't even be a thought in my mind. I HAVE YOU. YOU LOVE ME. YOU WANT TO BE WITH ME. So why should I care if you talk to her..OH RIGHT, YOU FUCKED HER. I swear on everything I never had sex with Ryan. And I mean that. I'm not lying what so ever. I don't know why you can't believe that.
I'm sorry I'm this way. I really am.
so he goes and does it behind my back?
And you want me to trust you?
I talked to Ryan TWICE since we've been back together.
And this girl is still calling you and texting you.
Yeah, I broke up with you for Ryan. BIG MISTAKE. I get that.
But you went and FUCKED another girl.
You say it "was to try and get over me"
But obviously, you had some type of feelings.
You once told me.."I don't do anything with a girl past kissing unless I think of them as my girlfriend."
Well, techinically, we've been together since Feburary then.
And your apparently dating her too.
How can you tell me you love me.
Look into my eyes and tell me your not talking to her.
And she tells me you still are.
Hmmm. Weird isn't it. And when she calls when I'm with you, you get all defensive and shit..And then delete her number from your phone.
Real slick. Like I don't know what's going on. You underestimate me. And when I try to talk to you about it, you get all pissed off and start to be a dick to me. Okay, maybe I am a little insecure about it. I know I FUCKED UP but I'm still terrified your going to go and do something back to me.
I don't know.
Now, I'm going to close my heart back up. Because I don't feel like getting hurt. Not by you. I don't think I could go through something like that with you. You would completely destroy me. Break me down into little fragments. Completely tear my heart into 2. I really don't think I could put myself back together if you did do that to me. I really wish I wasn't insecure. I wish I didn't feel this way. FUCK FUCK FUCK.
How do I make this one right? We don't have any problems until someone mentions her name. That's it. That's all we fight about. Is HER. I know she shouldn't even be a thought in my mind. I HAVE YOU. YOU LOVE ME. YOU WANT TO BE WITH ME. So why should I care if you talk to her..OH RIGHT, YOU FUCKED HER. I swear on everything I never had sex with Ryan. And I mean that. I'm not lying what so ever. I don't know why you can't believe that.
I'm sorry I'm this way. I really am.