I visited my grandfather in the hospital today, three days after he got a grapefruit sized tumor removed from his colon. He had a 50/50 chance of living and so far, he's "alive."  Barely, but he's alive.

He's on a feeding tube, has all sorts of thing hooked up to him, and is in the critical care unit. Seeing him like I saw him today was horrible. ( Read more... )

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So there goes my life,
Passing by with every exit sign.
It's been so long,
Sometimes I wonder how I will stay strong.
No sleep tonight,
I'll keep on driving these dark highway lines.
And as the moon fades,
One moment gone, only twenty more days.

But I will see you again,
I will see you again,
a long time from now.

And there goes my life,
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i really dislike the fact that I used to be a really happy person
as of late, everything brings me down.

Honestly, can I have a piece of this good karma soon? Can I get what I give?
 Someone real? Something real?

Oh, and did rise against have to sing about cardiac arrest? really?

fuck me.

we're all just waiting to die.

one candle, one diet coke, one splenda. Hope you enjoyed it jewface mazzeo.

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It's kinda hard with you not around
Know you're in heaven smilin' down
Watchin' us while we pray for you
Everyday we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe

In a few minutes I will be on my way to my grandparents house, to take care of my grandfather and keep my grandmother company ( Read more... )