i kinda figured you wernt mature enough for him yet, i had made the same mistake before, you think you can grow to love that person but you cant, just dont repeat that again because it doesnt work. oh well. in the future dont post comments about your up and comming break up before you do it. its really tacky. post away after its been done. ps never date guys who want their woman to call them by their nick names either (J-ROD) thats retarded. lol.
I know you weren’t trying to be mean, and I appreciate your advice. Thanks. I do think you were wrong about one thing though. I think I am mature enough for him. Maturity was never the problem. He loved that we could have so much fun together and that I brought out a more care free side of him. Also, I never meant for him to see/hear about this post till after I talked to him in the morning, like I said at the bottom of the post. I just posted it so I couldn’t put off doing this any longer because it would have only gotten harder with time. I tried to call you but your phone was already off by the time I got out of work. I don’t know if I should call him or not and I wanted to ask you if he even wants to talk to me. Since I don’t know when your phone will be on call me when ever you can.
yeah he still wants to talk to you. i didnt actually call him, i just sent him a text saying it looked like you may break up with him by the looks of your LJ. i was just looking out for him, as of right now he still hasnt read your journal. prob will today though. i think he thinks this is going to break up your relationship overall because he had such a good thing going with you the semester you were up at ferris. but i still feel bad about doing a similar thing to my ex boyfriend jeff. but i dragged it out for 2 years trying to love him in a passionate way when i never could, it was really hard for me, i still to this day feel horrid about it. i have told him numerous times that i am sorry for the way i treated him, but i can also use it as a life lesson. today he tells me that i was young and didnt mean it and its ok because we have both moved on to better things. my phone will be free wed after 6, as it will be all juiced up by wed morning. gotta drive to rochester tonight afterwork.
oh yeah and when i said the older man never works, what i should have said is that it works for a while if you start dating the older man when you are still a TEEN but normally doesnt work out, because you will seriously change alot within the first portion of your 20s, the way you view life in general, its not like you will become a different person,the same things may still make you laugh etc.i think the older man thing is great if you are in the same stage of life as that other person, meaning, out of the party phase, out of college and in the working world and possibilly living on your own (doesnt aways apply).that thing i speak of with jeff did work out great for a while,we never fought and laughed often he was my best friend at that time. some of my gal friends out right used to compair my relationship to theirs and how theirs could be more like mine, this made me feel bad when deep down i knew the passion wasnt there and that little bug in me that still wanted to expirence other guys was still in me. i wasnt ready for the solid
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I tried to call you but your phone was already off by the time I got out of work. I don’t know if I should call him or not and I wanted to ask you if he even wants to talk to me. Since I don’t know when your phone will be on call me when ever you can.
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