Let's see...today in the grocery store a very attractive stranger working the bakery told me that if I didn't mind hearing it, that I had a beautiful smile.  It really made my day.  Most of the time, I am so worried about what my teeth look like that it was nice to be reminded that beauty comes from what's inside of you--a moment of happiness is ( Read more... )

chocolate milk and a fat, homely cat,
a white wedding cake duvet cover
warm feet, warm hands
warm heart

At this moment, I am on a train headed for New York City.  I cried in the train station when Tim left me behind, turning back over his shoulder to smile that bright white smile at the automatic doors, opening his leather jacket so I could hug his chest.
"Go," I said, "before I cry."
And then I cried anyway.  I raptly stared at the schdeuling screen, ( Read more... )

Well, what's happened?  Let's see ( Read more... )

I bought new curtains for my room's windows,
I want to be the owner of my space.
I want to be the owner of myself.
I need to reincarnate into something new,
born again in new bed sheets that haven't known quiet sex,
no more crying tears into my ears until they ache,
upon pillows that his head touched.

The blanket of self-pity and sorrow has somewhat lifted and today I woke up and thought ( Read more... )

Jay broke up with me on Thursday.  He told me he just wanted to be friends.   I don't really know what's going on.   I don't know if things will work themselves out between us or if he is really serious about this.  But I feel abandoned, alone and broken-hearted.  Five years and ten months and now nothing.   What comes next?