im searching for you... im alone, and im scared... im filled with anger and regret.... and im searching for you to lead me to a better tomorrow... in hopes id forget the past from which i came...i hate myself for believing in a farie tales they filled me with... the false hope that something better was bound to come to a place so bleek and ( Read more... )

i feel dead....my heart is beating but i feel dead...i want a bf but not robert...i know what i want but its someone im not supposed to want... oh well...

i miss him...i miss his voice, i miss his touch, i miss him...the difference between now and then is its not a mournful miss its more of missing a friend. its not hard any more. now that i realize why i loved him and what about him leaving made it hurt so bad its alot esier to move on. i miss the closeness i had with him, i miss feeling like i ( Read more... )

well...bastion called like 10 minutes ago... i hate to admit it but i still love the fucker...i keep having dreams about him, and we still love each other, and the world is good and then i wake up and realize that the man i loved is dead to me. all i want for christmas is someone to love me who wont hurt me, who wont break up with me and merry my ( Read more... )

well, my life in novato is dead....i can never pick up where i left off, i can never just showw up and have everything still be the same as it was when i left. too much has gone by, i have missed too much. im dead to them. and as for here the same old mess as it has been all these years. i miss being happy adn in control of my life. i want to just ( Read more... )

cant you see what its like
behind these faded eyes?

the angels cried ( Read more... )

even though he put her through so much, she still loves him... how is this possibile... he abuses her but she still loves him, doesnt seem to care for her but she still loves him... how is this possible? the one man i cared about didnt care when i got hurt after he married katie...but how can a women love a man who disrespects her, abuses her, and ( Read more... )

its weird, its like im watching my life pass before my eyes....im empty.... but i miss him more then anything....is thast so wrong? maybe it is... all i can rememebr right now is the way i felt with him... in his arms.... i know i wont forgive him but i will never forget him.... not through all the pain, not through all the confusion..... im simply ( Read more... )

can you feel it? the empty space? the longing for something you cant let go... the pain you cant forget... the thoughts that wont let you sleep at night... the memories that haunt you? cause i can. im locked in a house of nothing but pain, nothing but hurt, nothing... but me....im lost, im confused and im done......i have nothing left to say.... ( Read more... )