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[80s_child]

A lot has passed since I last made a real update. I thought I should make a little post now if not else, just to tell you that I may be updating this thing a bit more actively from now on again, as I finally scraped enough together to replace my old shitty motherboard-busted Dell with a brand new, Acer powerbook. it's 6 AM, I've spent an unhealthy

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[ulvesang]

Heartbreak is a normal emotion. Trying to kill yourself over them isn't a normal thing to do about it. Especially doing it in front of the very person responsible.

Why are you so depressed? I know how annoying that question is, but you've got fantastic support and all the opportunities in the world should you want to take them-- and with no cost of failure.

Maybe you just like being the psycho girl?

[80s_child]

As stated, it was an accident. I did not mean for myself to pass out (or die!). What happened was a miscalculation because of carelessness which stemmed out of not really caring so much at the time. Anyway, this was way back in -07, and I have come a long way since towards recovery.

As for the following question, I don't feel depressed so much anymore. I was depressed for a whole decade because of childhood/youth trauma, which is a very long and complicated story which I do not care to get into right here right now. The fact that this heart break happened at a very vulnerable point in my life did not help. But as said, it's in the past now.

[80s_child]

...and one more thing, yes. I love being the psycho kid ;)

[ceboholic]

Yay! Good to have you back at last.

[80s_child]

*ruffle* feels good to be back!

[80s_child]

for me usually, if there is something I do not want someone to know, I'll f-lock or filter that post. Usually I like having my good friends and "special someones" read my LJ. It gives them a peek into my head and I, being someone who has a difficult time opening up to others, find it a welcomed thing.

[bristolian_kam]

Hey :) I'm struggling to say much anywhere at the minute, but just wanted to let you know that I think of you, and am glad to hear that you're well.

The story here touches some uncomfortable parallels which I've been sitting on for quite a while, trying to recover from illness and recoup whatever dignity may be found. In the second half of last year, my partner of 3 1/2 years fell for somebody else, and despite being sick, lonely and rather desperate in a foreign country, I could only just quietly accept it. But then, now that I've got just back home and start to pick up all the messy pieces, I find that I'm the one who has to learn how to be sociable again; just as you say, taking the 'baby steps towards that thing called life"'.

Good luck to you :) It's great to see you here, and I'll be grateful for any updates you make which will help me along! *hugs*

[80s_child]

aww, I'm glad to hear I could somehow reach out to you and make you feel perhaps more confident about the future *hugs tight* I'm also very sorry to hear about the less pleasant events, but what I can say is that like in the case of me and the person I left, the fact that what happened happened was probably eventually for the better anyway. You, like my ex, will probably find someone of ultimate compatibility evetually. I really hope I can support you on the way!

I wish you too the best of luck!