When I can't sleep....words start flowing in my mind...and I find the need to record them..

on my mind tonight? My childhood home..an unedited remembrence.

I lived in a mobile home park..and through the years the land slowly changed. When I was very young we had neighbors on both sides, a functioning sand box, and a window in our play set..but as ( Read more... )

I have not worked out yet...but I intend to!

Breakfast: Boca Burger (100), egg (100), and hot sauce (0)

TBE

Commitment! I just need to stay commited.

Plan:
-1500 calories a day
-No carbs or only 1 or 2
-Water or Tea, maybe diet soda now and then
-Weight lifting and aerobics alternating 6 days a week
-One free day, but no crazy crazy binges

It is heating up, and I want to wear shorts without cellulite. I can still lose 50 lbs. I just need to stay committed. 82 ( Read more... )

I am so done. I hate my body. I hate my mind. I hate my cowardness. I hate my stupidity ( Read more... )

Yup. Saw it coming ( Read more... )

Although I do not believe it is true, the scale now reads 5lbs lighter. It is enough of an inspiration to hopefully have another food-free day ( Read more... )

Made it through one day of fasting [:
I drank about 9 cups of water, and I worked out for around an hour and a half. Burning somewhere around 350 cals...Not much..but I still need to learn how to rev it up..

I may have popcorn tomorrow...but only if I am starving..

In other news...Nerdgirl is done with her exgamerboy..Time to find new hope!

xxo

I am still 210lbs...two months later...this is ridiculous. I need to actually get devoted to this ( Read more... )

I lack the creativity or motivation to think up a title..

I set tomorrow very easy by over eating today, I intend to go cold turkey and change, so I wanted a final day of binging...I'll list what I ate then discuss my new plan:

Coffee with creamer-38cals
+Two biscuits and jam-430cals
+2 chocolate cookies-620cals
+Cola soda-131cals
+Protein shake-180cals
+ ( Read more... )

...At some point, every gamer does this...they say "well fuck...I messed that up.." and they restart the game ( Read more... )