i am thinking of joining americorps or the peace corps...
i need a new experience and i want to do something worthwhile and good for someone either than myself.
what do you think?

i am exausted. i can't concentrate, my eyes can't focus and i have trouble keeping them open. i haven't had more than 5 hours of sleep each night since monday. considering i usually sleep 10 every night, this is really wearing on me. i would love to just lie back and fall into a deep sleep right now, but i have to go to work ( Read more... )

indescribable ( Read more... )

what's the point to anything?

sometimes i wish i could stop thinking and analyzing things, it's quite irritating.

but i got internet at my place now, so i'll be updating more often. possibly.

so i've been moved in for just over 2 weeks. there have been people there every day but one. there has been alcohol consumption on multiple occasions, which led to me puking. i drank 4 beers last night and smoked a bong and i puked. i'm done drinking for a while.  i still don't have the internet there. or cable. but i have guitar hero and mario ( Read more... )

i'm finally moving out of my parents house and into an appartment in brewer ( Read more... )

i give up.
i was so niieve to think it possible.
why do things never seem to work in my favor?
what's wrong with me?
why did i waste my time trying to reach an unattainable goal?
why do i feel so hopeless right now?
i wish i had some kind of reassurance.

wishful thinking has always been my downfall.

so i'm back from cali, got back saturday. it was nice, finally talking to my sister and spending time with her. i learned some things about my dad that i didn't know. i don't think i'd enjoy living there though, the people there were stuck up and obnoxious for the most part. i don't think i'd enjoy missing out on spring and fall either ( Read more... )

i've been living in the past a lot lately, and i don't like it. i miss being able to drink extensively and having good times with good people. talking about more than "remember when..." and repeating the same stories. i hate to say it, but the last semester in machias has been one of the greatest times of my life. all i do now is work. i hardly ( Read more... )

I'm writting this from my iPod! Woo! Its only 8gb and that's enough for me at the moment. That's all I have to say. I just had to write something in here haha