It's funny how things can change and take a complete u-turn so quickly.

Please tell me, what kind of grown straight man thinks it's alright to say "byez"? Fuck. Maybe this isn't so bad.
I think I'm fucking dying, I'm having stomach problems. Maybe I have a deadly viral infection making my shit yellow.

So it's been a really long time since I've used this thing, but I'm thinking getting out my feelings might be a productive activity at this point in my life ( Read more... )

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Dear You,

Your birthday was on Tuesday, and no one mentioned it. Has everyone forgotten you already? I know I never could. I'll never forgive myself for the way I handled things. I know I spent years of my life being too young to realize how much I truly meant to you. I also know that even when I was told I would one day regret it, I was still naive ( Read more... )

deathmetaldoogie: trust in yourself before you  trust in others

This feels oh so wrong.

I'm deathly afraid to let anyone be kind to me. I'm scared to let anyone be close to me. I've reached this conclusion. Last time, it took a long time to break down those barriers, and he killed me with kindness, but then I feel as if he turned into a huge asshole when he knew he had me and then I was stuck. I didn't know what to do. I'm afraid if I ( Read more... )

I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss these days sometimes, but this isn't to try and bring back the past. It's just so I never forget.

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Today was the type of day that reminds me of how glad I am to be alive. Those have been very rare lately.