I want to do something ( Read more... )

Life is so lifeless. I miss wanting to do stuff and enjoying what i do, its only now that i realize how much i was actually enjoying despite the depression. I really wish I was off this meds, they are horrible. 

Today i was minding my own business in my room when all of the sudden I see my psychoterapist, right there. She came earlyer and unnanounced..... We discussed about jobs and than she started whineing about her own job and the terrible collective there at the clinic. It really got me down cause it remined me how horible peoploe around here are. She ( Read more... )

been spending all day on social networking sites waithing for some of my online friends to come online and nada, im so sad, just dont know what to do with myself. I really miss talking to people. Thinking of going to that NGO to hopefully meet some people similar to me. 

So i went yesterday to the doctor thet operated on me and he sayed he will see me in another 3 months and if than the bone isnt healed i'll need bone graft surgery. Right now im relieved and busy hateing the doctor thet proposed prostesis especially cause not even on the internet says such mesure would be first option, no where near it ( Read more... )

seams i may need a hip prostesis, i just cant think and dont want to 

So i went to the ortopedist and after I told him i still have some pain he decided to send me to xray and rescaduled. The x ray didnt came out good, bone is still healing, fracture looked preatty bad i could see it myself including the broken screw. It really got me down :(. Now Im waiting to be able to see him (hes  not available this week) and ( Read more... )

I havent posted here in what? months?
I didnt cause nothing happening in my life. Just waithing for something to happen. Maybe its not a good politic but im as apathetic as a plant.
Im upset my motivation is very low cause of meds and im not doing any progress on learning layout design. My dad is just happy meds are working psycosis wise and does not ( Read more... )

Im so bored, i think i reached the maximum of my posibilityes of being bored. Even the internet seams like a ded end , nothing special  and feel like ive seein it all and researched it all lol oh and found things google does not say anything about like " emotional inversion". Its a term my psichiatrist used refering to my schizophrenia and barely ( Read more... )

I seem to be retarded when it comes to talking about myself ( Read more... )