so I'm about to head to work. I work from 6-close so I will be there for awhile...like midnightish. "Chris" wants to hang out tonight. I really like him a lot. We were both completely sober yesterday and talked about "what we are". As in...what our relationship is. I told him it was up to him because he just got out of a relationship ( Read more... )

oh my god i am so drunk right now ( Read more... )

i just ate sushi. I had 5 pieces. I shouldn't have eaten that. I feel so sick to my stomach. That was the first thing I've eaten in 5 days or something. I honesty lost track of the days I wasn't eating. I've been so busy. I work in a restaurant like I said, but on the side I also do PR for an energy drink--VENOM by Dr. Pepper. So tonight from 9-12 ( Read more... )

I would really appreciate it if boys didn't exist...that way I wouldn't have to spend countless hours thinking about them and being nervous/anxious ( Read more... )

And I realized. It was all because of this. I’m just hiding in their shadows of expectations. The way I feel so ambivalent in their midst. I can never appease their undying notion of perfection. So incomplete lying on a makeup-stained sheet I write this. Telling you, diary, this is the beginning of an uncertain adventure ( Read more... )

so much has happened. I'm going to be quick about this. still in texas...love it now. broke up with boyfriend. got a new job at a pizza place (watching them make the food and seeing what it looks like makes me NOT want to eat :), met a new guy from work. am pretty much in love. he is HOT AS HELL. this has never happened before. a HOT guy has never ( Read more... )

my dad cheated on my mom 4 times with 4 different women. i cant believe this is happening

haven't eaten at all today. i just got turned down from my 5th job interview. getting a job in dallas has proved to be impossible. i think it'd be fun to work at Petsmart lol
seriously though...how fucking hard is it for a person to get a job these days..

I just woke up. this is going to be harder than i thought. I already have intense cravings. If i eat though, I will want to kill myself. this is horrible. I have nothing to do and I'm so bored. I guess I'll go look at youtube thinspo

i didn't eat dinner..it's 9:03...start of a fast? :)