So, I'm in Guam peoples! And i took my OS3 exam the other day. And... I'm still on deployment! Yuck! But anywho. We are going to a place next where most of my ship hasn't been. So.. anywho.. thats about all i can tell you guys. Tty... when i can!

I really don't want to come back. I don't want to face that life again. This time I don't think I'll have the strength to carry on into a deployment. The deployment is going to be 6-9 months. I don't think I have the strength. I left my friends tonight, semi-happy, then I got home, and realised how much I miss home. I never thought I would miss it ( Read more... )

I stole this from doug, i'd like to see whats changed ( Read more... )

Okay. So, last week I was in the hospital. How many people knew that? You guys who really actually read my journals would have figured out for yourselfs what was probably going to happen to me if things kept up. Well, I was put into the hospital. It was horrible. The worst part of it all, was my ship left the next day to do an operations deal. I ( Read more... )

How can I deal with life if it's beating me down? I'm trying my god damn fucking hardest to keep myself occupied and not thinking about anything but the thing that keeping me busy. So tell me why nothing works? My mind always travels. I'm not happy with anything in my life. The only thing that I really care about right now, is that my dad is alive ( Read more... )

Hello all. I only have less than 5 days left in Hawaii. Then off to San Diego once again. Then back again for leave time which is when I'm trying my hardest to come home for my best friend Cyndi's baby (my niece). But then after the 2nd week in April.. we're going on deployment to the Persian Gulf. Yep, its a definate Danger zone. But anywho. I ( Read more... )

Hey everyone ( Read more... )

So far.. this year has not gotten off to a good start. I shouldn't be trying to date anyone on my ship because if its doesn't work out it will be just awkward on the ship while working. So pretty much I regret this already. And, I called my parents yesterday to talk to them. I asked my dad how Mitzi was and he was like "good" and I'm like "you're ( Read more... )

Arg.. so it seems like I only post on here now that I have duty. Yeah.. this blows.. This new years is gonna suck! Last year was a great way to bring in the new years. I had someone that loved me by my side. This year I have no one and I'm all alone. So much has changed since last year. This year has pretty much been a crappy year. Lets see here ( Read more... )

So.. yesterday was a horrible day for me. My cell phone got stolen. So all my numbers.. gone... I need y'all's numbers.. if you would pretty please give them to me again!! Please!