a girl needs her best friends around for these things, but mine are all spread out around new england. boo.  so i really like this boy but he has no idea. to my knowledge anyways.  sometimes i catch myself doing things and i step back and am like , Erica you are seriously a crazy person. get help. like today i sat at my desk for six hours trying to ( Read more... )

i can't let this run my life anymore.  something is changing.  i need to be able to fall asleep at night.

i think i have fucked up big time.  regretting every second of it ( Read more... )

strugglingggggggggg and it is not fun. don't know what to do with myself.

i am the only single girl left here at home. i was semi embarrassed to be at that party after i realized i was the only one not attached to a boy. this really fucking sucks. this whole thing is getting increasingly difficult to deal with

gah. today was really bad, realllllllllllly bad.

haha old boy out new boy in. i change my mind everyday. he's super cute . im like 12. kbye. 

i should trust mine more often, like all the time.  i have all these weird suspicions and gut feelings that i second guess because i think im just being paranoid or stupid.  BUT THEY ALWAYS END UP BEING SPOT FUCKING ON.  fuck it. stupid stupid stupid. fucking pissed. and angry. and semi- miserable. 

WORLD  SERIES MOTHER FUCKERS. THE CHAMPAGNE TASTES WONDERFUL AT HOME. SUCK IT CLEVELAND.  I WILL HAVE JACOBY ELLSBURY'S BABIES.  

brian said something the other night that made a lot of sense to me and i was just wondering others opinions. i was talking about some boy that had screwed me over and brian said  "love sucks" and being the hopeless romantic i am i challenged  the statement. but he explained his feelings by saying he's not opposed to it but its in its nature to be ( Read more... )