Lost Love

as the piano floods my mind

not even the pictures can return what once was lost

the emotions demolished into nothingness,

but the memories of those who live on

places we return to

mesmerize

and than forget

Silently I watch the snow melting away, as I exhale into the cold evening air.
My thoughts are murky, on the edge of depressing…
It’s been a while, but this cramping feeling is pressing,
as I feel the need to self-harm.
Maybe it’s a good thing that I’m not alone…
that there is someone around to watch my every move.
I’m compressed, conformed ( Read more... )

why does it feel like I can't show my sad face?
ima... it feels like I am losing my happiness

I want to cry, though it feels like I am pushing it away
how long will I have to wait until I can let the tears go?

although my best friend is close by
I can't tell her....
I can't even stop the fake smiles

I want to tell her
just for a little while let me rest in ( Read more... )

It wavers… Unsure if I am happy or sad, lonely or just empty.

It’s moments like these I look back, corner myself in the darkness.

I lose my appetite and I start to force myself to stay awake.

だめ だ!!! だめ だめ だめ だ!!

At times like these there is only one thing that can cool me down.

I can only do one thing; occupy my mind from thinking.

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