It wavers… Unsure if I am happy or sad, lonely or just empty.

It’s moments like these I look back, corner myself in the darkness.

I lose my appetite and I start to force myself to stay awake.

だめ だ!!! だめ だめ だめ だ!!

At times like these there is only one thing that can cool me down.

I can only do one thing; occupy my mind from thinking.

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