man ... i feel weird even updating ... it feels so useless though ... i remember that when i made this journal, i made it with the intentions of not very many people reading it ... but since i'm not friends with like ANY of those like 4 people i gave the link to, the ONLY person who reads it now is holly .... i never thought it would bother me that ( Read more... )

ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww....... i just updated ....... an update that i felt was needed, and it went away .......... someone go catch it!
*tiffany*

it's een a VERRRRRRRRY long time since i've updated .... Rar .......i miss holly, i need her right now ......... it's been a kind of boring and draining day all at the same time ........ i just got off the phone with danielle, she called to pry my feelings out from over the phone, interpret my dreams, generally bug me ..... she was helpful, though ( Read more... )

YYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY... velvet goldmine is on!!! yay!! i'm totally taping it. i haven't updated my journal in forEVER .....but who really cares? no one reads it anyways .... okay? .... nobody .... holly and i had a cool little talk about half-ass-ing life.... well, actually it was more me coming to realization and feeling regretful,.... maybe ( Read more... )

i'm soooo ewww ..... i haven't really done much of anything today ..... the usual .... blew some bubbles in my chocolate milk ...... missed a movie i really wanted to see ........ i wanted to do some painting, but never got to it because i felt all draggy and sleepy ...... and partly nervous and ewe, mostly because i haven't spoken to holly all day ( Read more... )

"I thought it was funny, because when she asked me how I knew Nick, like a million things came to mind. Haha. Ahem ( Read more... )

blah ..... i feel all ick .... holly and i were just on the phone and i got all weird because she got all weird because i didn't want to say a name, first time bad luck, it would've sounded odd and left a lasting bad impression .... i don't know though, she's been weird and maybe i've been weird too today ..... maybe just her, maybe just me, i don' ( Read more... )

Yesterday holly, her little sister, and i colored easter eggs, and it was way fun. we went to starship and bought some cds ..... chimaira rocks my socks, okay? .... i really don't have anything to update about, so i don't know why i am, i think it's because i had a dream last night where i really wanted to update, but i couldn't feel my fingers on ( Read more... )

my jaw is hurty, i must've been all grindy last night .... yesterday holly and i had way alot of fun...... we went to get our A Perfect Circle tickets, and then we had to go pick up Davis, but i was nice because holly told me to be, and i'm going to pay for it because i feel bad because i'm the one who dropped him on his head ........ (we're SOOOO ( Read more... )

ugh, i feel so terrible ...... it's the most amazing feeling that can feel so bad, to love someone so much, that when they hurt, you hurt. ....... my heart is literally aching right now, and my tummy is upside down ............. i feel like a failure, i feel like i'm not enough, and i just want to glue her pieces together and be the dirty kleenex ( Read more... )