... cause people believe they're gonna get away for the summer ...
man ... i feel weird even updating ... it feels so useless though ... i remember that when i made this journal, i made it with the intentions of not very many people reading it ... but since i'm not friends with like ANY of those like 4 people i gave the link to, the ONLY person who reads it now is holly .... i never thought it would bother me that no one reads it, because after all the "real" purpose of a journal is supposed to be to vent and reflect, but honesetly, i miss the comments and knowing that my words are being read ..... i think that's why i've stopped updating, because my updates no longer seem important .... that's weird, it's not like it would bother me if no one read a written journal of mine (in fact, i would PREFER it that no one read a written journal of mine) .... but yeah .... so i'm going to put my journal into circulation again, and give this link to different people .... new people ..... who? i don't know ...................... i'm all kinda pissy right now ....... i want to hang out with paige, and since i know that holly and i can't be apart, i ask holly to go with me EITHER friday OR saturday night to a party ...... even though i would rather go to the party saturday night because there will be more people probably and more new people, i offered to instead not go saturday, and go friday to the party that eryn invited us to, and we could bring paige ...... and i don't know why she's so against that, we would be at HER friends house, with more people that SHE knows, and i'm still hanging out with her, just with other people .... plus, i'm going to be with her saturday and friday night anyways, so why can't we do what I want one night, and what she wants the next night ? .... go out one night, stay in and cuddle one night .... sounds like a good compromise to me, but whatever ................ and i'm freaking going to have NO friends, because i always have so many people wanting to hang out and stuff, but i never do because i know that holly never wants to hang out with people ........ i really did have fun at gypsy the other night, and we didn't do drugs or anything, i just missed meeting new people....like that's WHO I AM, a very SOCIAL girl ........ i like people, and i like people liking me .... i love holly, she's so great ...... i just wish she would meet me more in the middle ..... like i do WAY more of what she wants to do and she is rarely interested in doing what i want to do ..... and it's for her too ..... she's 19, shes not supposed to want to stay home all the time or whatever ....... she NEEDS friends and contact with peole jsut ad much as i WANT it ......... rar ......
*tiffany*
*tiffany*