okay so its been like FOREVER since ive even looked at this thing. but i have a good excuse.. My computer was being really gay for about a month or so, and it crashed. Deleting all my thousands of pictures.. yea i wanna cry but it wont change anything so oh well.. buut i just got back form hawaii yesterday and it was amazing. I absolutly love my ( Read more... )

one things for sure. As far as i have come, As much as i have changed. My love and compassion has not changed any more or less towards the people around me...   Its definatly been a hard long crazy last three weeks. some tears, tons of laughs... eggs-cops? two car accidents.. reality checks.. first arguments... my grandparents 50th wedding ( Read more... )

happy valentines day.

life's been a little bumpy, never seem to fully be a happy person. Seems like their is always somebody in the way...

( steven, and louis. for lifeeeee )

im trying. its just harder than i imagined it to be... I love you allison winet. you will never know how much you mean to me. Nobody ever understands me like you do. and Nobody will ever love me like you do. its great to know that i can call you whenever and know that you will make me laugh if im sad. or cry with me if i dont want to smile ( Read more... )

i need to change. i have to change.

I laugh at people less fortunate than me. I judge people i've never even spoken to before. I invite myself into situations where I know im not wanted. I sit and  dwell on things, and on people who arent a part of my life. But I constantly make them..i procrastinate on homework. dont put through my full effort in ( Read more... )

formal. brandon. deodorant ( Read more... )

umm where to start? matts soccer game. "is he hugging her?". basketball game. monte vista girls cheer competition? oh hell no.. haha. "i told her you liked him a lot and he likes you too!!!" oops... didnt know i was on speaker. haha. steele canyon parking lot inside the trooper. we are SO cool. fun conversations for like 4 hours... are you going to ( Read more... )

about the earlier post... i appreciate everyone who offered too help. I dont need anything, but thank you. To the anonymous person below... i didnt mean to be rude and i understand if you thought that was my intention... but it wasnt.

Post ANONYMOUSLY your true opinion of me ( Read more... )

im venting, so im sorry ahead of time for being rude or inconsiderate. yes so im going to formal now. And i honestly dont want too.. just because i dont think people realize how big of an issue money is with me... everyone im going with is getting off easy. Their parents are willing to pay for them, as long as they go. But in my case its the ( Read more... )

im so bitter. and have no intentions or any desire to change.

( i dare you to move )