make me stong.
i need to change. i have to change.
I laugh at people less fortunate than me. I judge people i've never even spoken to before. I invite myself into situations where I know im not wanted. I sit and dwell on things, and on people who arent a part of my life. But I constantly make them..i procrastinate on homework. dont put through my full effort in anything I do. I look at the negatives of everything. I wish for things im never going to get. I wait for things that are never going to come. I constantly set myself up for disapointment. I never realize how special and important people are until I give them away... now i feel alone. but its nobody's fault but mine. i gave up on tumbling. i thought i could do it but once again i was wrong. i try and try but everytime i just fail again. who can blame me? you would give up too, if nobody believed in you. cheer just isnt my thing i guess. but then again no sport is. Makes me wonder what my purpose here is... defiantly not to be an athlete, and i doubt for my brain. maybe to sit around on my fat ass(and yes, i happily get reminded everyday of how fat it really is..:/)all day..i cant even be myself. i dont even know myself. but here i am, dwelling on this. making it no better than it already is. i think its time to start. its time to change who i am, and start being who i want to be.
goodbye. ill continue later