I'm not sure what sparked this emotion other than a severe kick-in of hormones but jesus christ. I feel so fucking lucky right now. I love you Matt, a lot, and Melanie, I love you too, and everybody else I just. Ahhh ( Read more... )

That was harder that I thought it would be. I got to talk to my brother David, which if you didn't know is out in California homeless. It's so hard to hear someone's voice that you love and know that you can't see them. I thought I was going to start crying on the phone, I miss him so much. I'm so glad I at least got to hear his voice though and ( Read more... )

Rar! I keep getting irritated and feel like I'm sinking into a depression. I shouldn't be though, I'm so happy most of the time and Wesley James Haynes is always there to put a stupid smile on my face. Damn you! It's scary to think how much influence Wes has over me. I'd do anything for him which is scary in a way, I always hoped to have a high ( Read more... )

I haven't written in so long it seems like, though i've been writing almost every day in my diary. My dad is finally remarried the wedding was on friday the 9th, it was a nice small ceremony even though I had an ugly dress and had to go first in everything. My grandfather got to walk me back after the ceremony which was really nice and I danced ( Read more... )

I had something I really wanted to write in here....however I forgot. Not an uncommon thing. I want everything at once in a way...I want to grow up and have a future, I want kids, I want to read them bedtime stories before they fall asleep...preferably Rudyard Kipling's "Just So Stories" and James Christensen's "Voyage of the Basset." I just want ( Read more... )

Just woke up from a nap on Jasper's bed, it was so nice, except cold and he kept smacking the bed every now and then. Sleep is such a nice thing, I'm happier now and my back doesn't hurt anymore. Fixes everything..well almost everything. I love dreams though, used to keep a dream journal, but then I started forgetting to write in it the morning ( Read more... )