Rain. Car door slams. She's on her knees, so lifeless, senetenced to an eternity of deceit and betrayl. What's left of her are her tears pouring down the cheeks of her saddended face, the light shining just above from the street lampost. Alcohol seeps from her breath, a stimulant to comfort her in this time of grief and need. She asks herself the ( Read more... )

It's like a bad chain of events happening one day after the next. When one thing happens, obviously 10 more minor incidences have to follow. Last week before my Vegas trip, literally 2 hours before leaving, i get into a severe car accident. Then problems with my job, friends, and the usual guys. It seems like there is never ending drama in my life ( Read more... )

I guess you could say this entry might be a continuation from my 'st pattys day distaster' entry although it is months later, particularily due to the fact i went back to London and visited the dude who rescued me that night and his friends and what not. Bascially i'm totally disappointed and lost all my respect i had for him. Obviously as soon as ( Read more... )

why is no one there for me when i'm balling my eyes out on my kitchen floor and shouting at the top of my lungs as if i was drowning into a pool of cyanide.
i've given up.
are you happy?
i'm done with everything.
it just hurts too much.

So apparently i like to hurt myself ( Read more... )

Hey..

anybody remember the days where people actually used to care and comment on journals? yeah, i do.

Buncha jerx.

& there he was
like double cherry pie, yeah there he was.

Numb: the complete loss of feeling and or emotion.

Partial-numbness to the heart, and to the brain is what i feel.
Why can't I say what I feel? I do, and I will. I don't care if it scares you away, or if it makes me seem anything more than the loving person i am.

"Idelle, why does that always ( Read more... )

Expirencing one of the most craziest and insane weekends of your life in another town is a scary feeling. Panic takes over, fear seeps into your skin, and danger is all around. I think i've learned 2 good lessons: one, always being aware of your surroundings, and being able to take control of situations, and another one is to take risks. Even ( Read more... )

So in about 5 days i'll be in London visiting Leeann! I miss her so. I can't wait! love

everytime i think i can try and open my heart up to someone and possibly learn to love, something goes wrong, so from now on that's not happening any longer.

Good day.